Everything is shitting on me at once.

I'm just not handling the stress very well.

T_T

I broke up with my boyfriend 'cause of a lot of contributive reasons.

Yes he was loaded..

but it seems I'm not that materialistic enough to stick by him. (wth)

Yet I'm that superficial enough to not be attracted to him.

sigh :(

however the ex-gf and I are patching up things.
i know.
i'm complicated right?

School is just crap. so much to do so little time to do it in.

I ain't the type of guy to put up with peoples shit--or tolerate attitude

which is what i've been doing a lot..

Ima turn super saiyan and bust a cap in somebody's ass soon.

.. but for now i'll just stick to listening to classical music to sooth my soul.


in depressing moments like these, what do I usually do?

make faces.

Cleaned my room!

Not much on todays news.. I cleaned my room and yeah here it is now ! Hora!


I was tired of sleeping on my clothes every night, and the piles were so high that my back was all weird by the end of last month

Car stuff

Today my Audi a4 got a car CD player and my other car I drive for university purposes got one too!

I'm uber thrilled about the progress of both cars

(and also my ability to degrade it with scratches! ugh!)

My dad put in a red LCD lit stereo in the Audi, which matches the whole theme of the car.

It even has an AUX! (for my iPod)

Unfortunately my uni car has no aux input.
However it does has a new stereo speakers to match :D

zomg I'm thrilled :D I've been sitting in my car(s) for the past hour just fiddling around with it and other stuffs init.

obsessed or what :/

__

and my new obsession is that..

I MUST HAVE THESE!

:(

X-ray scan.

..

I just came back from getting a chest x-ray scan.


Something is going down.


Sounds pretty serious huh.


well..




Not really!

The guy that was doing the x-ray scan was so hot.
Damn his hot asian ass in that business attire.

I was dazed with his face while he commanded me:

"Remove your shirt! take off any necklaces"

Y-y-yeeSSS SIR!

and then he pressed me against some board;

raised my arms up from behind;

rotated me a bit more;

asked for more shots;

sent me to the desk.

:)

As long as people have friends to share their sadness..

..it becomes easier to bear

A guy who can make things happen?

I asked for a job from my boyfriend, for the two months I will be staying with him in his house around December. Since I'm not familiar with the state he lives in nor am I familiar with ANYTHING there, I thought it was going to be impossible. I said it's not going to happen.. lol.

I had the same feeling with the airplane ticket and he ended up doing it! Got me an airplane ticket way under half price of the normal fare.

All he said was "that can be done." and what do you know? the next day I get a forwarded email with the conversation that he is having with some chick (his friend) working in the recruitment agency where all i have to do is email my resume now.

:O connections. amazing. <3

i love my boyfriend

I met my boyfriend and for 4 days we had nothing but awesome memories. Though now I am here alone, I start to miss him more and more. We've been dating just over 2 months and a few days (i dunno how many days lol need to ask him about that).

When I was with him, I felt so secure. I sure felt secure at that moment and security for the future. Doesn't everybody want that? I know it may seem silly but yeah I've always been afraid of getting dumped. I'm always the one being let go if I love to much. And my usual (rather abnormal ) counter - break up with them first. Probably explains why I've never been in a relationship for longer than a month. However this is not the case anymore. He loves me for me and with each day I grow to love him more and more. However the timezones MAY be a bit difficult to work around, he calls me the same time his time (earlier for me) only for me to fall asleep earlier. That's the kind of adjustment i've made for this guy.

You know not one moment did I cry or look sad in front of his face. I thought to myself, maybe i don't really care? I kind of worried myself, because truth be told... I do care! It's just my feelings were hard to express when i was with him cause i felt there was nothing to worry about. On the plane back home and in the car with my best friends.. I just let it out. I cried like there was no tomorrow.

I have so many memories of him. How slightly chubby he is (lol) or us holding hands while I tore the streets with the rental car he got for me; Waking up to each others faces, and our hands still interlocked (wth?) haha; Him making me dinner with a pie that said my name on the front and taste delicious; grocery shopping while I sit on the front of the trolley while he pushes me around through each isle; and how when I ask him questions, he has the answer to everything.

I miss every time I had with him.

and then the radio here played a song that made him cry in the car on the way to the airport. I know I should've been in the same mood he has but my hand was busy putting fingers up at people on the road and swearing at them through the window. His town sure has crazy drivers that burn the fire in my eyes

"Now don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone.."

My car, and its series of unfortunate events.

Yesterday I went to university to study from materials only obtain-able in a specific section of the library, and no they don't allow you to loan it. ugh so I basically spent most of my day stuck in this division, trying to take down as much notes as possible.

Afterwards I went out with some friends for lunch/dinner then movies..

I couldn't believe it. I got home and I was on the phone to my boyfriend..... then I got a text message on my phone but didn't realise it until I got my phone.

"I've been trying to call your phone like 20 times. um don't get mad at me.. but.. uhh.. can you check your car-seat if there are any stains??"

I was telling yoshi, hang on I'm gonna go check my car and yeah.. you could have probably guessed my reaction. There's blood on my carseat. :( I went through a range of emotions before settling down to the can't be bothered one.

I just couldn't believe she left period stains on my car seat!!!!

omg and my other friend in the backseat.... oh don't get me started with him.

We went clubbing one night and he got sooo drunk. His name is too long so yeah abr. as hikoki. He kept apologizing to me in the car. I was wondering why are you apologizing?? I took him home. Then I threw my takeaway on the passengers seat, it had soup it in. I thought I just spilt the soup when i went to go check it but..... the seat was wet in places that the soup could never get to. fuck. He pissed on my car seat. You don't understand how unbelievably grossed out I was.


WHY!!!! WHY MY CAR!! I THOUGHT YOU GUYS WERE MY FRIENDS :(