hisashiburi

man I hell forgot about this site. I guess I've just been too busy updating everything and everyone else, I haf neglected this one. school was just creeping up my ass.

updates in my life? so much shit has happened, and it's so overwhelming just to type it all.
Though a brief summary include the following:

• relationships & sex

• meeting guys burning bridges with them, controling strings and being hurt by them.

• assignment stress; being praised by my tutor in front of my whole class for one of my history essays during the only day i decide to SKIP the freaken class. Sigh.
• passing my assignments! Those death essays were out of the way and passed too.
• exams! man they were stressful
• passing my units for this sem!!! way to go mee. not the kinda grade i wanted to get but meh no fails~

I finished this semester of university and from the 25th of november, I officially became a bum.

That's right, no job, no school. I just sit around waiting until I start school in APRIL.

it's a long way away right?
hahah.

i love such a cruisy life as my own.

Anyway I think I will be resuming work next year, it's just for this year I want to relax and thing about nothing but myself and ways to further my R&R lifestyle.

the mysterious guy

There's this guy at uni I want to know!
He's my height and very manly~

Though I don't know if he likes guys or nething, because truth be told he doesn't come off as the guy who likes guys. No way in a million years.

but why does he keep exchanging looks with me?

[background story]
I was in the university library until midnight last week, and he was there though he had his back faced towards me (a very hot back mind you). He kept turning around 'subtly' though there was really no reason to since I was the only one sitting behind him (maybe around 6/7 meters away from his back). I thought it was strange he kept turning his back at me.. maybe there was something behind me, which I kept trying to check - nothing though. Also I'm visually challenged (wearing glasses because im short sighted) though at the time I could make out he was turning to face me since my vision isn't THAT bad. I kept thinking to myself, maybe it's my vision that was playing up. So in response to that thought, i put some glasses on. It only just reinforced the fact that he was looking at me, with a few more glances.

The jay chou lookalike was around trying to catch my attention i presume but I was so uninterested in him at this moment.

In my uni, the library closes for a few minutes and then reopens again so everybody has to exit and then re-enter.
I exited.

I waited near the door, with my back against the wall reading a newspaper about the party scene.
This guy came by soon after and stood near me. Not only did he do that but he wanted to make himself noticed by me, so he intentionally walked around in my 225 degree circumference of personal space. Little did he know I saw him from a mile away (with my shifty eye).

I stopped reading the newspaper and pretended to type a text message on my phone. He saw me so he pulled out his phone and began to call someone. Then we both entered.

I kept wanting to go to the toilet near him to get a glimpse of him. Suprisingly!! He kept wanting to go to the toilet near me, when there is clearly a toilet more closer to him. Coincidence? I don't know..
//end summary

Yesterday I tried to explain to my best friend what he was doing. I did it by reenacting the scene in the computer area of the library. So yeh, i reenacted the scene.. and maybe I was a bit loud - or she was, but anyway! the message got through.

We finally got up to leave,
when I never noticed that

two rows ahead of me, THAT mysterious guy was there.
I couldn't see him because a white wall thing was covering his face, but he raised his head above and made sure he saw me.

like no way............ maybe he caught me reenacting. Why did he raise his head at me instead of looking at the computer? did he want me to acknowledge that he's there, or that he sawwwwwww the whole reenactment.

Who are you mysterious guy and why are you teasing me!!

Everything is shitting on me at once.

I'm just not handling the stress very well.

T_T

I broke up with my boyfriend 'cause of a lot of contributive reasons.

Yes he was loaded..

but it seems I'm not that materialistic enough to stick by him. (wth)

Yet I'm that superficial enough to not be attracted to him.

sigh :(

however the ex-gf and I are patching up things.
i know.
i'm complicated right?

School is just crap. so much to do so little time to do it in.

I ain't the type of guy to put up with peoples shit--or tolerate attitude

which is what i've been doing a lot..

Ima turn super saiyan and bust a cap in somebody's ass soon.

.. but for now i'll just stick to listening to classical music to sooth my soul.


in depressing moments like these, what do I usually do?

make faces.

Cleaned my room!

Not much on todays news.. I cleaned my room and yeah here it is now ! Hora!


I was tired of sleeping on my clothes every night, and the piles were so high that my back was all weird by the end of last month

Car stuff

Today my Audi a4 got a car CD player and my other car I drive for university purposes got one too!

I'm uber thrilled about the progress of both cars

(and also my ability to degrade it with scratches! ugh!)

My dad put in a red LCD lit stereo in the Audi, which matches the whole theme of the car.

It even has an AUX! (for my iPod)

Unfortunately my uni car has no aux input.
However it does has a new stereo speakers to match :D

zomg I'm thrilled :D I've been sitting in my car(s) for the past hour just fiddling around with it and other stuffs init.

obsessed or what :/

__

and my new obsession is that..

I MUST HAVE THESE!

:(

X-ray scan.

..

I just came back from getting a chest x-ray scan.


Something is going down.


Sounds pretty serious huh.


well..




Not really!

The guy that was doing the x-ray scan was so hot.
Damn his hot asian ass in that business attire.

I was dazed with his face while he commanded me:

"Remove your shirt! take off any necklaces"

Y-y-yeeSSS SIR!

and then he pressed me against some board;

raised my arms up from behind;

rotated me a bit more;

asked for more shots;

sent me to the desk.

:)

As long as people have friends to share their sadness..

..it becomes easier to bear